counting the days.

And perhaps, maybe, that insult about you might have just been a playful tease to them which they thought was funny, but actually, to the person being insulted, it might actually have meant a lot. A lot of harm and hurt. And because of this the person will keep thinking about this, and just thinking that she isn't good enough, and it'll really remain in her head forever. But in the end, this person just pretends not to care to make it seem like she is really confident of herself, and lets the someone continue teasing her, but the fact is. She is really not confident of herself, and gets more hurt.

SO PLEASE, STOP INSULTING PEOPLE ABOUT THEIR PHYSICAL APPEARANCES. I JUST HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE DO THAT. YOU'RE NOT PERFECT, SO WHY ARE YOU LAUGHING AT OTHERS FOR THEIR IMPERFECTIONS & BRINGING THEM DOWN LIKE THAT? And you don't even know how much hurt is inflicted on them, because you never experienced it before. C'MON MAN, CALLING SOMEONE UGLY WON'T MAKE YOU PRETTIER. AND AFTER ALL IT'S WHAT'S IN THE INSIDE THAT COUNTS.

Okay I think it's quite hard to understand what i'm trying to say. :/ But anyway, just wanna say that I've been insulted about my physical appearance manymany times, and each time, I just get more hurt. And I just can't get myself to be strong enough to not care about the insult. I pretend to be strong, I laugh it off, but deep inside, I'm hurting.

Just penning out my thoughts. Anyone felt that way before?

It's 12.30am alr, gotta wake at 6am tmr for school. Sigh. 5h+ to sleep i guess! :<

Ohwell, goodnights! :)

Fiona.